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You Belong to Me

July 20th, 2011

You Belong to Me <– right-click or ctrl-click to play or download MP3

I think this song was originally recorded by Patsy Cline. It is such a perfect, classic song. Bob Dylan did a version for the Natural Born Killers soundtrack back in the 90’s, and Carla Bruni did a version on a recent record of hers. I’m sure there are a hundred other versions out there; here’s mine, recorded on my iPhone using Voice Memos, on a quiet Thursday afternoon in my living room.

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resurrection

July 24th, 2010

my daughter, a toddler and blessed with fascination for the mundane, was crouching next a water fountain.
by night, it serves as the centerpiece to an urban beer-garden. in morning light, she innocently surveyed it’s submerged pennies and floating cigarette butts, and suddenly exclaimed “bird! in da wa-ter!” in her adorable, sing-song, high-pitched toddler voice.
at first, i assumed the floating shape was lifeless. i wondered if ‘dead bird’ was a concept she would grasp, and what kind of ‘first’ this would be for both mother and child.
but it breathed, if just barely, it’s beak opening and closing in a languid, hopeless way. i scooped it out with a styrofoam plate. it’s eyes were glazed over, a bluish white. it’s tiny claws were twisted and limp.
out of the water, it began to shake and shiver. with paper napkins i dried it, and wrapped it up to keep it warm. it fit in the palm of my hand.
my daughter peered at it curiously and proclaimed cheerfully: “so cute!” – her charming naivete contrasting with my weathered dread; i’ve lived long enough to know what it’s like when a small animal dies in your hands.

but slowly this little bird began to recover. it stopped shivering, it’s brown eyes focused on me. i held it and spoke to it, and imagined that it might be comforted by my care and concern.

so what to do with it? following the advice of a wild-life rescue center’s automated answering system, we placed the bird, still swathed in it’s paper blankets, in a small covered container with air-holes: a paper soup-to-go container from a nearby coffee-shop served the purpose.

we took it with us. we waited for the animal shelter to call us back.

in it’s dark, disposable-paper-product nest, it continued to rally. i was amazed to see the life come back full-force into it’s tiny body, but my daughter was less impressed. having been unaware of the danger, she was oblivious to the miracle. for her it simply continued to be ’so cute’…
animal rescue called us back, suggesting we return it to where we found it and see if it could fly. following their advice, we drove it and then carried it back to it’s beer-garden. as we approached, we heard it begin to ‘cheep! cheep!’ – an encouraging sign.

we opened the container, set it down in a flower-pot, and waited. it peered around, then snuggled back. i thought it might take it’s time in venturing out into the world again, but as i reached to adjust it’s napkin-blanket, it hopped out and flew across the patio! we watched with joy as it hopped and pecked on the ground, looking around and taking it all in, this bonus-round of bird-life, back from the brink of extinction.

we disposed of the container and napkin – with a tiny pile of bird-poop, the only remaining sign of our happy-ending story – and went home.

the bird’s survival was so uplifting, so special for me. at bedtime, as we began our routine discussion of the day’s events, i reminded my daughter of the incident. “remember the bird?” i said. her face lit up. i wondered what she would remember, what part of the adventure stuck out for her, what would she say? and with the joy and fascination that only a toddler in toilet-training can bring, she exclaimed: “bird pooped!”

health care wary

May 6th, 2010

today i was lead to understand that in order to maintain ‘hospital privileges’, doctors must fulfill a certain quota and submit a minimum number of their patients on a regular basis. i have also heard of surgeons being required to book a certain amount of operations in order to keep their job just budget analysis. although these steps make sense for any business with a budget to meet, what does it mean to us – the patients? it means that our doctors are constantly facing challenging moral dilemmas between what is right for their patient vs what is right for their career – because the system pits those two values against each other. does it have to be like that?

one time when bush was still president, i remember hearing a blurb from a ’state of the union’ address. he was addressing the economy and had to report that it was generally down across all industries. “except”, he said cheerfully, to brighten to mood, “for the the health care industry”, which was on the rise! … i didn’t think that was particularly good news. it just underscored for me how much more it benefits big medical business to keep us sick than it does to cure us. they don’t want us dead, because what good are we to them then? but the best scenario is if we have some kind of chronic condition, or one of the big slow-death, big-ticket diseases like cancer.

i am very concerned about my daughters’ generation. when i go to the playgrounds, the kids don’t look good. the percentage that are overweight or obese is ridiculous. and i hate to think of how many of them are on behavior medications… i watched a documentary recently about children on behavioral medication. in every case, the seemingly innocent first medication, administered to deal with a hyperactive or moody child, led to complications, side effects, and dependency on not one but 5 to 10 serious medications within a few years. and in every case, in the background in the homes of these children there were televisions on. all of the parents were obese and in every home, people were eating processed foods and/or drinking sodas. i’m just sayin’…

this topic really gets me worked up. children under the age of three do not need to watch ANY television (even DVD watching impairs and distorts normal brain development) or consume ANY sugar or refined foods (which are both addictive and are necessary, i believe, to the development of diabetes, heart disease, and cancer). why expose small children to these damaging habits? at that age if they are not exposed to them, they won’t even know they exist! of course once they enter the social realm they will eventually want to partake in the american self-destruction-through-consumerism party, and conscientious parents will have to decide where they want to be on the hard-assed to lenient, to permissive, to enabling spectrum. but damn, at least give the little guys a fighting chance! if they’re already cracked-out on disney and cocoa puffs by the time they’re two…? it’s sad that we’ve gotten ourselves into such a sorry state, but it’s devastating to see our children served up as lifelong consumers of manufactured non-food poisons, and fodder for the booming health care industry.

rant over. off to bed.

Days Spin

March 3rd, 2010

it’s already march, and that caught me by surprise again this year. could it be those 2-3 missing days in february? no, that’s not it. time speeds up as you get older. i noticed that when i was 6. i notice it more now.

what a strange winter. we were stunned again and again by the snow that enveloped us, rescheduled us, introduced us to our neighbors, and overwhelmed our mild-weather-loving trees. a side sight; the amputated magnolia limbs that decorated our sidewalks.

as the days draw longer, i wonder what the thaw will bring, as we climb out of our cozy dens, and great the ripening year. i look forward to farmer’s markets, laughing running kids in the park, flutter sleeves, sockless shoes, iced coffees, sunglasses, lunch on the patio…

and usually i hate summer

what goes here?

January 23rd, 2010

i’ve got plenty on my mind, but never know what is appropriate to put here. is this where i just talk about my music? and say the expected things like: hey! buy my new CD! or at least restrict my posts to music-related adventures? well, even with a new album out, that’s just not where my life is at these days. here’s a recipe for the easy and awesome beetroot soup i made for guests last night and just had leftover for lunch:

1/2 lg yellow onion, chopped
1 T extra-virgin coconut oil
4 medium beets, peeled and chopped
salt and pepper
1 T honey
pinch of dried dill
yogurt or sour cream for garnish

in a large pot, sautee the onions in coconut oil over medium heat until very soft (20 minutes – keep the pot covered when not stirring so the onions don’t dry out and burn).
add beets and sautee until they release some of their water.
add cold water to cover beets by about an inch. add salt (to taste, or about 1/2 tsp) and freshly ground pepper. bring to a boil, reduce heat to a simmer and cook until beets are soft (about 30 minutes).
blend in 2 batches until very smooth. return to pot and stir in the honey and dill.
serve hot or well-chilled with a dollop of yogurt or sour cream. serves 4.
yum.

INTERPLANETARY TRAVELER in orbit

January 17th, 2010

interplanetary traveler came out on tuesday and it’s a wonderful feeling to have the opportunity to share these songs.

since i’m not planning on touring, i am relying mostly on the internet to spread the word about this record. in a lot of ways, it’s a great time to be an independent recording artist, because it is possible these days to bypass the middle-men and get your music directly to listeners. on the other hand, we all know that music is mostly traded for free, so it can be difficult to recoup one’s investment. it costs money to make records and publish and promote them. so it’s nice if y’all buy the CD or downloads legally, just because i’d like to make my money back, and because i have a manager who works very hard for nearly nothing unless people do buy records.

that said, i’m also just happy to have released these songs out into the virtual universe to let them go where they will. it’s been amazing to see over the years how the music finds it’s way, and the comments and letters i get definitely mean more to me than money. so, thank you for supporting independent music, but more importantly, thank you for listening!

Launching

December 16th, 2009

Interplanetary Traveler is about to launch, after three years in the works, and it’s been an amazing journey! It’s funny, the album is a documentation – an ode, in a way, to the unsettled life… But in the time it took me to finally release the album, I grew roots. My life became deliciously routine – deep with meaning because of my new role as parent, satisfying because I quenched my thirst for new new new and no longer need that drug to keep me going. So I feel light years away from being the person who wrote and recorded that album, but thankful for the documentation of that time in my life and those facets of myself… I’m happy that it is coming out, I’m happy to have the cycle coming to completion – from conception through production to consumption. Although the part that really interests me is the creation, an album never feels finished until it’s been released.